Stop pushing?

By doing what is right. To follow what is truth. To show sincere, true, unconditional love, to those who needs it. Even to those we hate. It's not easy. It's really a big challenge. I believe we are put here for a reason. This tribulation and trial. 

Once upon a time I was an ordinary guy, seeking for ordinary things. Seeking for the world's attention and love. Storing up glory and treasures on earth. But then I started to realize, these things will fade away. One day, you can never have it forever.

It's never easy facing problems, trials, persecution often. It pushes to our carnal limits to the extend we have to seek for God's strength to move on. God allows all these things to happen because He wants us to trust in Him. To depend on Him.

There's nothing of the flesh can give us joy. My only will is to do God's will. Why is it so hard.. God.. Why..

"25 My soul clings to the dust;
Revive me according to Your word.
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26I have declared my ways, and You answered me;
Teach me Your statutes.
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27Make me understand the way of Your precepts;
So shall I meditate on Your wonderful works.
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28My soul melts from heaviness;
Strengthen me according to Your word.
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29Remove from me the way of lying,
And grant me Your law graciously.
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30I have chosen the way of truth;
Your judgments I have laid before me.

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31I cling to Your testimonies;
O Lord, do not put me to shame!
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32I will run the course of Your commandments,
For You shall enlarge my heart."

Psalms 119:25-32


But still, I will run to You. Forever. Should I give up? Never. Never will I give in. Never will I.. 

Learning to love.

Each time I open my eyes, it puts a HUGE smile on my face. :D Just to know that I'm alive, and I'm redeemed, loved, cared by a humble God. Prayer had been a part of my life. I try my best to be constant in prayer. To keep living in devotion with God. Constantly asking for a passionate and anguished heart for God and His people. My friends and my family. :) 

Since God loved us all, I should learn to love them. Since God chose to forgive and give sufficient grace those who confess and repent, I shall do it too! Since God never gave up on me, I will never give up on my friends and family. Even it takes me to love my enemy, to talk to them, to show grace to them, to do something to them out of kindness and love, I shall learn to do it. 

In life, our carnal and selfish ways are always the opposite from God's way. Which always teach us righteousness, love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. 

It's easy to listen and say it. To say that we'll do a particular thing with love. Until it becomes a lifestyle. But the challenge is doing it. For the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. That's why, we should always depend on the Holy Spirit to teach us, guide us, remind us. 

A thousand times I've failed Still your mercy remains.

A song that always put a great weight on my heart each time, without fail, is - From the inside out by Hillsong.

"A thousand times I've failed

Still your mercy remains 
And If I stumble again
I'm caught in our grace"

It just puts me to shame, that I keep making mistake, keep being disobedient, keep sinning against God. But still He chooses to forgive, if only I confess and repent. 

Acts 3:19,¹⁹Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord.

I realize that we, humans, never learn our lesson. We keep on repeating the same old mistake, again and again. We always choose to learn from the hard way. That God must afflict us with illness and problems, then only we realize what a mess and wrong we had done. 

God shows His grace to us, because He loves us so much. I pray that we will not take it for granted. For His grace is sufficient, nothing more, nothing less. Just nice.

We should always have an anguish heart, a repenting heart. A heart that cries out, that remorse. Being humble to admit that we all have fall short, and sinned. 

God is not looking for someone that is free from sin. No one is. God is looking for someone that is humble to admit. Hungry for God's love. Constantly judging himself, and asking for God's forgiveness. God is looking for someone that says, "I'm nothing without You"

Always remember that we are all sinners. We make mistake. We all fall down. We were lost a one point in our life. Doing things that we regret. We all have scars. Bonded by fear. Seeking for worldly attention, affection, fame, popularity, status, money. I was once there. Everyone was once there, craving for earthly things. 

But only few would have the desire to let go. 

Praying is important. Really vital. Don't ever think that your prayers are not taken into account. 

Wait upon God. Persevere. Constantly pray, having a strong desire to know Him. Pray that our hearts will be convicted. Pray that God will use us.  

Pray for His will to be done.

Isaiah 55:8-9

⁸ “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, 
   neither are your ways my ways,” 
            declares the LORD. 
⁹ “As the heavens are higher than the earth, 
   so are my ways higher than your ways 
   and my thoughts than your thoughts. 

Father God, I pray for our heart will stay strong. We need Your strength oh God. Without you, we are nothing. Just dust. There's so many times we feel like giving up. I pray that we will find hope in You again. We may feel that we're worthless, pathetic, and useless. But still we're caught in Your love and grace. Your word still say:" ⁸ Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. (james 4:8)

How awesome and great you are. My hope is renewed, and I shall sing praises and worship to You, and only You. 

Amen. :)